TL;DR The Update Post of a Block of Text

Well, here it is a month after I was going to restart. And I haven’t done it yet.  My restart was planned during a time when I thought that I would have things settle down.  In the end, my dad died the first of December and I am taking care of my mother full time.  There is a lot of TL, DR in this, but it has been a hard 4 or so years in my own life.  The blog, obviously, has suffered from this.

Over the last few years, I had thought to rebrand myself, start trying to monetize and offer patterns, for free or sale; I hadn’t really decided.  On the latter, I know how to make something I want, but I am not formally trained and I felt (and in some ways still do feel) that I could do it better then many of the indie companies out there.

Then I started to really listen to people I knew, people that sewed and GOMI, which I lurk there.  Both Pattern Review and GOMI really brought home that I am not a mean girl, I am not going to play the game it takes to become part of the cool kids, and I really don’t want to live like this is my HS career all over again.  My dad’s cancer and death (of which he died cancer free) brought home life is too short for stupid goals.  And for me this IS a stupid goal.  (But if you make good PDF indie patterns, GREAT!!  I hope you get super successful at it because we need GOOD indie designers!)

After a friend of mine went to try out for Project Runway a short time ago and had about convinced me to go (Season 12 and 13 if you care).  I didn’t.  I realized through all of that trying out process (I did not get past the contract and making 2 samples) and applying it to the blog and my own sewing, too that:

  • I am not a fame whore.  I don’t care if you know who I am or not.
  • My content will never be a lot.  I don’t, and won’t, produce things that are inferior to my skill and/or won’t wear to get content on this thing.
  • I don’t know as much as I think I do.

So right now, I enrolled in fashion design at college.  What it means for the blog is that I am exactly who I have always been and this blog is a journal that I can map my progress and have a place where I have the information I need to be better.  I hope you stick around through this leg of the journey.

Elaina

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3 responses

  1. Firstly, I am so sorry about your father.

    Secondly, re: blogging and sewing and life.

    OMG! You did?! Congratulations!! I’m so happy for you…and I agree that the trade offs involved in monetize your blog could easily compromise your integrity. I’m looking forward to seeing what you do in the sewing world this year.

  2. I’m very sorry to hear of your loss. Taking on care of your mother is a beautiful thing to do, it takes strength and a lot of love, especially while your father’s death is still so recent. Having watched my mother do this, I only understand a fraction of the love it involves.

    I liked the part of your post regarding the direction you’re taking with your blog and sewing. I’m friendly with some people who monetise their blogs but I also read (and appreciate) the debates on GOMI. Sometimes it feels like blogging should lead to money or fame or a book deal or whatever. Admittedly, that’d be nice but not something I’d actively pursue if it meant I had to be something I wasn’t prepared to be. For me, i’d rather invest that energy in further study of the craft, formal or informal. I was actually thinking today about costume design courses, I’m glad i saw this post when i did. All the best for your course. And good for you!

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